Farewell to Hawaii

Today I left the Big Island and spent the day in airports and on planes, flying back to Portland, Oregon. I sit here now, back in Portland, the city of Roses... Immediately I notice a lack of natural sounds in the atmosphere; the wind rustling, coqui frogs, the rustling of leaves and branches, the pitter patter of a drizzle... I miss the Coqui frogs like mad. I notice a lack of twinkling stars in the sky; they are lost here by the grey clouds blanketing the city. I wonder, where is the nearest beach? How do I get back to the magic?It's official, my heart has fallen madly in love with Hawaii. Like falling madly in love with a lover or beloved, only this time it's with the way my entire being and body feels, when in the sunshine, on the sand, in the water, absorbing the steam from the steam vents. I am in love with Hawaii the way one feels when they have finally found home after a lifetime of searching and waiting for that feeling of home.Not only will I return, but it is very likely that I will be cultivating and gathering all the necessary sundry check-list items in my life so that I can return to move there and settle down for.... indefinitely. I see myself moving there within the next few year. Not 100% sure it will be the Big Island; want to check out Maui and Kauai before I make a final decision. But I feel certain that Hawaii is my home, and I feel it in the cells of my body.There are a multitude of deep changes and shifts that occurred for me while I was there, that I notice immediately in its absence... They all have to do with lifestyle changes that naturally occurred from being there:

• Pretty much most of the food I ate there was home made, and much of my daily diet came from the garden
• Rarely did I eat food from a restaurant
• Rarely did I partake of alcohol or ganja, and began to decrease the amount of caffeine I took - including green teas
• I spent much much much more time in nature than I do when I am on the Mainland - being in nature was a daily activity
• I spent a lot of time in the sun, drinking in the sunlight like it was food
• My biorhythmic schedule seemed to finally even out and I went to bed earlier and woke up earlier
• I changed the work that I did for my income stream
• I rarely drank anything other than water or tea; having a store-bought Kombucha was a special item
• I got into a largely liquid diet of smoothies and home-made blender soups
• Did a lot of breathwork and pranayama on a regular basis while snorkeling
• Swimming in the ocean helped me overcome a tremendous amount of fear I had within myself
• I found that doing movement and Qi work in the ocean helped me feel more in touch with the natural elements and the fluxuation of elemental powers all around me, and helped me to develop my intuition and strength
• More deeply returned to my chanting and toning practice on a daily, regular basis
• All this combined to bring my bio-energetic physical & energetic body back to a state of balance and alignment. My body feels much more grounded and healthy now
• The total elimination of stress in my life meant that I was fully present and relaxed the majority of the time
• Living in a community setting completely transformed my feelings of preference for living alone, or in a small contained apartment or house, disconnected from others. Now, I would rather live in a community and be in a more supportive, socially open environment
• I feel extremely happy and internally balanced and nourished
• The Urban Environment and Lifestyle is Not for Me. Not anymore.
• I am So Excessively, Endlessly Grateful!!!!!!!!!!

I am at peace with being back on the mainland, and will allow the universe to work its will and magic in my life, but I feel strongly the imminent return to the Islands, within the year. Looking forward to it, missing it deeply already. So So So much gratitude to Robert Silber for creating the safe container of the Kipuka Temple and all the beautiful beings in the community there!! So much love and appreciation to you all! My heart GLOWS!