Mistake-Ability

We make mistakes. We are human beings; imperfect, unconscious some of the time, selfish and not thinking wisely always. Other human beings tend to look at us and make judgments about our lack of integrity. This I have come to accept is one of the primary rules or by-laws about living as a human being; that you must come to accept that other people will judge you. I feel that ultimately we all want peace of mind, which comes through a sense of integrity. But sometimes our integrity slips, and we act out of lack; we steal, we tell lies, we cut someone short, we fall through with our agreement, we don't do the dishes, we are late, etc.. The human story is one of drama, the drama of our experience, and our shared experience with other people. So many times, the story of "the drama" is a continuing saga of people frustrated with each other's lack of integrity; judging each other, holding each other accountable, and creating grudges. Thus creating psychic energies that have to be dealt with, healed, released, and oftentimes painfully evolved through.We are imperfect human beings, we make mistakes, and we want to be loved. We want to be loved and accepted because ultimately it makes us happy and feel good about life and ourselves. Being loved gives us a sense of wholeness that we often feel we lack, and we look to the relationships in our lives to bring us that state of wholeness and completion in our being. But then those that love us, witness our lack of wholeness, witness our lack of integrity and our mistake-ability, and begin judging us and withdrawing their love bit by bit. We feel hurt, we feel abandoned, we feel betrayed, we feel confused, we feel judged. We become angry and seek vengeance on those we loved.Withdrawing into the caverns of ourselves, we erect boundaries, self-protective measures, elaborate booby-traps to detect invading heart predators who might try and come too close to our vulnerability. Our hearts have created complex, unexplainable methods of sabotaging ourselves from receiving the love we desperately desire. We project our insecurities onto those around us, blaming others for our fears and we lose sense of our ownership for our experience. But we still want to be loved. We want to find that bridge back into the realm of blissful radiance. We want to feel nurtured and cared for. We want to relax into feeling connected to those we care about. We seek the perfect energetic relationship connection. We look for the bridge out of our cavern, so that we may walk from our heart into the heart of another.But we do so with fear, knowing they will witness our lack of integrity; our mistake-ability. Ultimately afraid of not being accepted keeps us separated, with our hearts torn and broken, looking for that bridge forever. We cannot hope to be loved and accepted under conditions that we act a certain way, look a certain way, maintain rigid compliance to a set of behavioral patterns, follow rules, maintain responsibilities and schedules. Because we cannot be loved & accepted when we are trying to fit another person's image of what being perfect looks like. Since we are shamelessly, imperfectly human beings, we will always fall through somewhere, and despite our best attempts at lying and covering up our weaknesses, our mistake-ability will be discovered - it is only a matter of time.So, it's time to be honest, mostly with ourselves. We have to be able to love and accept ourselves, despite our lack of integrity, despite our mistake-ability, because we will never be perfect and we will never appear perfect to another human being. Being glorified and put on pedestals of adoration does not equal being a perfect human being. Being enlightened does not mean you are perfect, it means you have attained a state of self-knowledge and can channel divine source-love to others from a space of compassion. An enlightened person loves and accepts themself, because they know they will never be perfect, knowing that in order to have peace of mind and to attain mindfulness clarity, they must love and accept themselves as they are; with their mistake-ability.  No one will ever be perfect, so why hold others to standards and levels of expectation you cannot hope yourself to attain? Some people feel that you must put others through intense scrutiny, examining all the layers, waiting for that booby-trap moment where they show their lack of integrity, so you can judge them and mark them as imperfect; and thus not enlightened, not perfect, not equal with Jesus Christ, and not good enough to be loved.The truth is, we are all good enough to be loved. When we decide to accept someone else as they are, despite their emotional process, despite their lack of integrity, despite their mistake-ability, we bring them into our hearts with unconditional love. This is the salve that mends our desperate, broken, torn hearts. We must be willing to be compassionate towards another person, letting go of the need to expect another person to be perfect, in order to be worthy of being loved. When we drop judgments and witness another person as they are, still able to express our perspective of imbalance, when we are able to nurturingly care for those we are in relations with; we embody the beauty of the Divine Mother. Forgiveness is the crucial key in this relationship, forgiving ourselves, accepting ourselves and loving ourselves as we are in totality - we are thus able to forgive others, accept others, with unconditional compassion.When we enter into this realm of unconditional acceptance and non-judgmental compassion towards those we are in relations with, we are re-creating the sacred circle of wholeness with those we are surrounded with. We are reaching out and co-creating the magic of a unified love field, a circle of positive energy, where people feel comfortable being their free:ky selves, accepted as they are. Where people come together to celebrate the bliss of community, the support and love of people who see each other and accept each other despite our mistake-abilities, and give each other the hope and nourishment that our soul longs for. We come home, and we relax into the peaceful surrender of being received, being met, being nurtured, and being seen for who we are. Thus our heart weeps joy, and we know for fact within every cell of our bodies that love is the true medicine.