Balancing Fire Energy
I have 6 planets in fire signs; four of them in Leo. My sun sign is Leo, and my moon is in Aries - which means I have a strong stubborn streak. I have long attracted a number of Fire sign people in my life, especially powerhouse Shakti-Mama women. We're a challenging bunch of people. I am in love with every fire sign kindred spirit that I have in my life, but there is something about the Fire Sign personality that is so intense and can be so challenging for people to be in relationship with. Sometimes I scorn the Aries energy in me, but it's not going away; you have to love and accept yourself and come to a state of self-knowledge in order to be at peace with oneself and life.
Being Embodied
To understand embodiment, it is helpful to look at its opposite; being unembodied. It is easy to fall into an un-embodied state; it's easy to lose oneself and to not be aware that oneself has become un-embodied, and not notice until the signs are screaming at you in every direction - especially in this culture. In fact, our culture supports and encourages its citizens to be un-embodied. Thus, becoming Embodied is a revolutionary act of freedom, in this culture of enslavement to socially dysfunctional norms.
Tidepool Transformations
Upon entering the hushed room, she began sobbing. She began wailing and emotionally releasing so much anger, sadness, disgust, devastation and empathy. Her heart wept, and everyone nearby came up to hold her through her grieving. For the next hour, she was held by an entire room of friends and allies, as she processed her grief through tears, weeping into a bowl filled with crystals. Her allies came and held her body, laid their body next to hers, simply to hold her through the intense release of energy. Today was a day like any other, but for her it was a day of transformation. A day of grieving and working through her deep subconscious emotional body, to process and clear her emotional energy body, to allow for a greater level of clarity to open... And then it hit me. The realization that in the realms of human psychic dynamics, our emotional & psychic energy bodies are affected much like a tidepool ecosystem. And, my subconscious was attuned to the unseen emotional energy washing through the space and responding intuitively to the flow of psychic energy being released simultaneously as her waves were crashing.
Receiving Resonance Medicine
Listen to the sounds surrounding you now. Open your ears. What do you hear? In every moment, we are saturated in a vibrational field of sounds, resonating within the cellular chamber of our body. Our body receives every sound and energy pulsing through it, from the dump truck picking up trash first thing in the morning, to the sound of a bus beeping as it backs up, to the sound of a hummingbird hovering just above us out of reach, to the undulating pulsings of a deep throat singing tone. Every sound registers in our body, and if we are present enough to the sensations in our body as we sit in a Modern Urban environment, we can learn how to become vibrationally aware to the degree that our bodies are being constantly thwarted in its attempt to reside in a peaceful state of homeostasis. Our bodies have the capacity to experience deep states of blissfulness, relaxation and pleasure. And likewise, our bodies have the tremendous capacity to be overwhelmed by stress, tension, pain and irritation.
Observing the Mind of Dissatisfaction
The most incredible meditations come through when I'm releasing with the enema. I squat on top of the toilet and release both waste and emotions. And the magic, I've learned, comes in through a deep state of relaxation - both in the mind and in the sphincter muscles. As I relax deeply, the colon releases more and more completely, and I go deeper and deeper into a profound state of meditation. It has become one of my favorite spiritual practices, because it facilitates opening up and surrendering and releasing the mind & thoughts & hurts & pains & frustrations. And I always seem to emerge lighter and brighter than I felt in the hours before. In one of my recent bathing + enema rituals, I had a major realization about the source of my pain. The realization came to me like a voice of pure light clarity as I was relaxing into a deep release of my colon. I had been asking "Why?" and the answer came as my voice speaking back to me: 'I don't like this,' 'This food is not good,' 'This place feels weird,' 'I don't want this,' 'I don't like these clothes' and on and on.
Full Body Presence
Yesterday, I discovered an essay by Suzanne Scurlock Durana, entitled 'A Guide to Full-Body-Presence' in the recent issue of Massage Magazine. What perfect timing. I've been feeling low energy, depleted, verging on depressed and unable to show up and be present, these last few days. I'd awoken this morning with that feeling of being slammed over the head by a frying pan; headachey and irritated at feeling so crummy. My roommate, Keala, reminded me to revitalize my Chi this morning, by doing breathwork, and exercising, and getting some fresh air. I didn't know how I would be able to truly come and meet the day today, so I prayed fervently, and then spent a half hour doing some basic chi cultivation movements, breathwork, and strengthening of my arms and core with weights. And then all of a sudden, I felt vitality slowly seep in.In her article, Suzanne talks about the importance of Full Body Presence to other bodywork practitioners, and the need for "a strong flow of healthy energy moving through" the body. I think this is crucial for every human being, not only for massage therapists and other alternative healer practitioners. She goes on to say:
"While left-brained intelligence that helps us understand anatomy and physiology is vital in our practices, we are all called now to more whole-body knowing. We must learn to remain present in all of our cells, trusting and living from the wisdom of our being. So don’t throw out your left-brain education; just add your gut knowing, your heart’s whisper of inspiration, and round that out with the inner vision of who you truly are."
Multiple Reality Disorder
These days, we seem to each be experiencing our own unique realities, wholly unique to ourselves. In modern America, there are many universally agreed upon experiences in the consensual reality, such as monetary systems, coffee cups, tables, chairs, cars and facebook. Yet it seems we are all beginning to fragment into highly specialized, unique to ourselves reality perspectives that have been created & enforced by our experiences, habits, education, belief systems and intuitions. Sometimes we find similar people - kindred "tribe" who speak our language and seem to embody a familiar reality frequency, and with them, we feel at home, comfortable, & safe. With others, we may distrust or judge, because they seem to embody a wholly different slice of the reality pie. How do we create peace on earth - a harmonious, working, functioning, thriving, mutually supportive ecosystem of interlocking web of relationships that are not based upon oppression or taking advantage of others? In a world where we are all increasingly emerging from a narrow bandwidth of the reality pie, how do we each embody and make our slice of the reality pie accessible to others?
Reality is Psychic
Reality is Reponsive to Consciousness. We must begin to understand that our reality is shaped by our belief systems, not the other way around. We can create the reality we want, if our belief system is in alignment with our desires. If we want one reality, but our belief system says something else then our reality will create a mirror image of our subconscious beliefs. Reality is a dream mirage that teaches us how to be more in tune with ourself, it is as responsive to our consciousness as food is to our hands. We create what we want in the material realm, whether it be a plate of food or a hand crafted table or an item of clothing, and before we can begin, we must have the idea within our consciousness and begin making choices to create the manifestation of our plan. Whether it be making a journey to a destination, manifesting our new home, finding a new job - we can create what we want because reality is responsive to our desires and our creative energies are what propel us forward in this dance. And if we are confused, or uncertain of what we want, and we believe that we are out of control in reality, we will be shown exactly that it is true. We must own our power as creation masters, learning how to master the subtle dance of creating with our willpower and surrendering to the flow of the "reality support team" - spirits or what we can call the Tao - to help align us and bring to us what we need in perfect timing.